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Positive thoughts.

I need to think them but..

it’s hard to.

I don’t know how to be happy and stay happy.

I want to though so I want to try but..

it’s hard.

“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”

   — Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story (via whorchata)

Those words keep echoing in my head. Constantly.

“When are you going to get it?”

I don’t know when. I wish I could soon enough.

And if I don’t.. what then..

I guess.. I could disappear for a while.

For a long time.

I don’t know..　

Sometimes, it doesn’t hurt at all. All I do is move on from you.

But then sometimes, it hurts a lot. It hurts a lot that I got rejected. 

It hurts so much I want to sob. I want to ask you “What’s wrong with me? Am I not good enough?”

It’s.. a bit confusing. But surely one day I’ll get over it. Right?

I hope so..

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Title: 小夜子
Artist: そらる
Album: そらあい
Play Count: 3,544

小夜子 (Sayoko) - Soraru

I want to die, I want to die quietly.

(Source: m00ns)